Saturday, November 20, 2010

#54 Before I even realized...

This sem is already over :O :O
Well, technically the vivas are still left, but who counts them ;-)
That brings the second last semester of my engineering to an end, already! I can still clearly remember the day I entered this college 3.5 years back, and it still feels like yesterday ! Can't believe, this is going to be the beginning of an end- last semester, last registration, last majors, last fest,last hostel parties,last canteen meals, last class treats, last-time standing in long queues of the library( well, i stopped doing that after 2nd yr, but just to add to the list;) ) and LAST SEM BREAK EVER !!
Speaking of sem-break, G is awfully sad today :( She had booked her tickets for home long back and was counting days before she could leave for the minefield that her hometown is. She was to leave home in another 5 days, and was looking forward to attending her best friend's sister's wedding and meeting all her friends on 1st december. But she is told today that the centre for her FMS exam on 5th is not Jammu, but Bhopal itself! So she's stuck here for another 15 days, and haaaaaaaaaaaaates it! What she hates more is that she decided to go ahead with filling up its form ONLY after learning that she could give it from home and won't have to stay back during vacations. It sounds like some cruel prank to teach me some lesson about not taking things too much for granted. Maybe. I'm just trying to find a reasoning behind things that happen to me.
I like my friend's reason though. He thinks its some sort of sign, that I am made to stay here for 2 weeks for an exam I wasn't even considering giving , only so I could prepare sincerely and perform well. I like the way he thinks, but I hope he also knows that G and studying sincerely have never got along well. EVER !
G tried hard to develop some interest in CAT , but it just blew up. So she has succumbed to the fact that she can never ever be capable of slogging her way out of something, she can just wish to do so, and get done with an average performance :-D
Speaking of performance, my theory papers got over just yesterday. And my performance was DISMAL, i'm quite sure of that. But then I can never ever be sure of myself, can I . I was unsure of almost everything in the past , specially when it came to exams, but ended up getting unbelievably fantastic results at times. But I have a nasty feeling about my pointer dropping real hard this time around. Can only hope it doesn't go as bad as I'm dreading. Not that it matters too much right now, I'm placed and probably won't have problem applying for anywhere if i want to, as long as my aggregate remains decent. But I still can't help the tiny anxiety somewhere in the corner of the head.
So yeah , I already mentioned I'm placed right, and if by any slim chance you happen to follow this blog, this post was about the same. That was one of the happiest moments this semester. Also those of some of my best friends. Want everyone else to grab their job offers asap, so that there is less frustration around in the air :-|

This semester had a lot of offer and teach. I lost a couple of good friends. That made me sad. I got a lot more new friends. That made me happy. I got closer to a couple of really good friends(two of them are my big time crushes :D ) and can't think of life without them now! This makes me soo happy. And you know what makes me happiest? Having made up with some of the friends I had lost before. Feels great.
And ohh yes, I finally gave up on trying to hate love. Its pointless. I admit I was being a jerk only since I felt bitten and was too shy to trust my instincts. I'm glad I decided to finally let go of my mental block and give up trying to force myself to hate love. I like love. I love love. Its a lovely feeling. OK i'm not making sense right now. But, once more, I like love. I love being told I'm loved, by anyone and everyone. And I love doing the same to them. Loving and being grateful for every damn thing in your life makes you a happy person. Try it.

So with the semester coming to an end, I want to do as much as I can in the next semester, the last one. Before I step into the cruel cruel mad world outside. I want to read as many novels as I can lay my hands on. Download and watch as many movies as I can from the college hub. Roam around as many places I can go to in the last semester. Plan a lot of trips, treats, movies, outings, meetings, events.....a hell lot of thing before I graduate. Don't I sound like someone desperately fluttering around in panic because theres a huge avalanhe approaching? Believe me , I feel exactly the same right now.

By the way, If you made it till here. You are so freaking jobless aren't you :P
I made no sense. Just wanted to blabber random stuff. Never intended to make any sense at all !
good night :P


Rahil said...

Its always great to read a fellow engineer writing about his/her life. specially when i am or about to go thru maximum same phases or stories as u going thru :) :)

Luvd the blabber. Refreshing and lot much interesting than the regular fb news. Smiled on certain lines, grinned on some :D

one thing for sure, engineer kahi ka bi hoh, sochta ek jaisa hi hai :) :)

keep smiling and posting.
and btw, u got placed, huh.
party kissne deni hai :P

vandy said...

first things first


this post really made me teary

last semester

its something that u shud treasure as much as u can

so enjoy every moment of it

see u soon :)

Chitranshi said...

and i read all till the comments... wat a lovely post! even d comments r damn interesting...

we engineers r born to do nothing.. we r useless forever :P

ok ok, i love u too... just think abt d good times coming ahead.. u still hav one more whole semester...omg! have fuN!! :)

G said...

@ rahil : Don't tell me YOU din't know. Party ki toh baat hi mat karo.. What do you think that day at City Centre was about :D :D

@vandy: yess yess I LOVE YOU TOO :)
feels great no :P
yeah , hoping to have the most memorable 6 months of my life in time to come. Fingers crossed !

@ Chitranshi di.. thankyou thankyou.. I'm so surprised my mindless blabber is being "loved" :O
I was actually feeling silly for gibeering mindlessly.. :D
I can totally understand when you say we have ONE WHOLE SEM, but for me , its JUST ONE SEM !! ;(

D2 said...

Interesting, your train of thought and the way everything progressed.
The next semester should certainly be a lot of fun, though a little disconcerting as we'd be leaving. I would certainly be depressed. There's a bunch of good reasons. :-|

Koo said...

Thanks for the really nice comment on my blog :)
I really really want to visit jammu for some reason. some sort of aura pulls me there. and it's one of my goals in life. It's sad that you're stuck in bhopal like that. Hope you read as many novels as you plan to cause nothing would be awesomer :D

G said...

@D2 Thankyou :) much as I would want the next sem to be the best time that could ever happen to us, I can only pray that our class realizes the same :-|

@Koo yes yes, i'm already halfway through one novel that i picked right after this post.. feels so refreshing :D
And do do do come to Jammu, and ofcourse you are welcome to my place anytime ! :)

Shrinivas said...

Nice post. Loved it :). Last semester already :(

And what's with me not being able to right click !! It keeps warning me with a pop up whenever i do that !!

G said...

I noticed stuff being copy-pasted which was horrifying !! And I couldn't even understand why would anyone even want to lift off this rubbish anyway !! Which brings me to my next question, why would YOU want to do that mister??

Shrinivas said...

Cos I right click and open the page in a new tab !!!