Wednesday, April 28, 2010

#37 They say love is there at every corner of the world......

and i think i'm probably running around in circles !!

okay before you jump into some exercise of the grey cells, please don't bother ;) Its not any desperate-chasing-of-love-attempt rant, but a text I received by my friend a couple of days back. I liked it a lot, so I put it up on my Google Buzz status.

Its this one reply by a batchmate that got me literally open mouthed..He gave me a link of a page in reply to the staus.. Its a research paper by a Tristan Miller of German Research Center for Artificial Intelligence...dates way back to 20 December 1999. You must read this! Someone can actually propose a mathematical model for the reason behind the inability of some men to find them suitable dates!!

Here's the link
Why I Don't Have A Girlfriend !

Apparently I have Artificial Intelligence paper to write tomorrow o-O

Crazy !

Thursday, April 22, 2010

#36 Anger

There's a lot of anger in me today. Anger over not having a control over myself regarding certain things I need to be focussed and clear about. Unfortunately, even after 20 years of existance I still havent figured out an effective and constructive outlet to this anger,and more often than not the anger turns into misery and turmoil in the head.
Will things truly be ok? We don't know if they will remain the same, change for the better or change for the worse... and that is what life brings us... questionable moments of this sinking time...time that washes away or lifts us up to the surface..
How much more of this can one take? Others do have it worse that I do, but I am going on sinking and I am questioning and I am wondering about everything and anything. Am I even making sense?

They say everything will be ok. It all needs time.

They don't know or they havent done enough. I have given enough time. Much more than enough. Waiting for things to settle and start over again. And I have noticed them not getting back to OK, but reaching a point of no-return. Time is needed only to get the stupid stuborn head to realize that the moment is gone and nothing can be done about it, and its time it move own and give up brooding over spilled milk.........

But what if you just dont want to let things go out of hand, and keep on trying to set things OK and figure out ways, no matter how illogical, to keep holding on to those things? Only making yourself sillier in the process??

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

#35 Sometimes

I wish I could start afresh. Absolutely from the scratch. From the beginning. Not a new chapter, but a whole new book alltogether. No trace from the past. No one forms any notion of me based on past instances. No judgements. No opinions. No questions. No ill-feelings. No animosity no mockery. Just the wisdom from the past experiences...