#109. Upwards and onwards

Some times I get a strong urge to turn my life around, to be a completely different person. Try out absolutely random new things and to go places I haven't heard of, meet strangers who have no context whatsoever of my life and are on the same path of adventure as the alternate me. Abandon the comfort and fear of uncertainty and chase the unknown and have blind faith in destiny. All this to create brand new memories out of brand new experiences.


Other days I'm very happy being me. And with the knowledge that one step at a time, I am indeed setting out to embracing the things that I had wished to do.

#108. When I felt I found a sense of purpose...

I feel lost again.

It's one of those times when I, who takes a lot of effort and strength to open up about things that I carefully hold inside me, want to scream and let everything out. But my safe havens are engrossed in their own chaos that my voice feels disregarded, unwelcome.

And that's when I regret the preposterous idea that my voice and my feelings have a patient and safe release. That coming out of my shell is not such a scary thought.

I want to go back to my shell again.