Saturday, January 24, 2009

#6 Its like.... im lost

I did not want to be un-blogged(i know its not the right word,but i can't think of an apt one right now)for so long. Cant imagine it happened. It aint procrastination this time. Somehow something or the other would happen that whenever i sat down to put in something, i never really ended up hitting the ''publish post' icon..

I am keeping pretty busy, if you may ask. We have this semester cut short to only 3 months. so obviously the pressure has doubled. everything has to be done fast n soon. all the societies and groups are working full swing on their events and programmes and stuff. im part of some of them. One big thing keeping me busy these days (and probably for most of this sem) is Excelsior. thats our college magazine. Its out every year by the end of this term. This year it has to come out very soon. Im one of the english editors, selected this year.

So lots of events and projects happening in my life really. Well not really. Theres something much more to it. I can't exactly figure out why, but i feel im trying to run away from some things..rather people... or maybe situations. Im not getting a good feeling about certain happenings around me, and believe me it sucks(the feeling). Guess this whole 'keeping-hell-busy-and-occupied-with-work' business is just a simple excuse, an escape route from something i cant explain. Its so intangible. I seem to be keeping out of the reach of some people, for some time atleast...and i don't really know if its by chance or by choice. Whatever it is, i feel like im being dragged...or maybe simply walking into a shell and trying to shut myself into it, a place im not too fond of. Guess its going to be for a few days until im secure and convinced enough that its safe to come back. I really want to. I want the silly stupid toothy smile back. Want the craze, the madness, the fun and everything that comes with all this.

I hope it happens pretty fast. cuz im getting impatient now. Right now all i can remember is the famous tale about King Solomon's Ring, which said 'this too shall pass' ....


vAnDaNa sLaThIa said...

see choti,, it's life & it is how it goes,,,soon everything will be over & then you'll again wanna be busy like this,,congrats for being selected as English editor,, my best wishes are with you!!
tkcare in these busy dayz

Alfan said...

haha...nice post...n trust me i knw a lot of people who passed so close to wat u r going through now..believe in Solomon..his words'l give light to your road of life..